restoration
// April 29th, 2010 // Motherhood, Rachel
on sunday, darren talked a little about restoration. i’ll be honest, i had a million other thoughts going through my head that i only caught little parts, but restoration was one of the last points and it hit home. i need some.
to restore:
- return to its original or usable and functioning condition
- regenerate: return to life; get or give new life or energy
- give or bring back
- repair: restore by replacing a part or putting together what is torn or broken
- bring back into original existence, use, function, or position
i need all of those.
why?
maybe it’s being a mom. lots of people say being a mom changes how you take care of yourself. i focus on my daughter and her needs before mine. my world usually revolves around her.
maybe it’s nick working so many hours combined with motherhood. it left me drained. maybe it’s that when i have free time i spend it working on my photography business. website, blog, design, contracts, networking….. maybe it’s lack of sleep. or not taking vitamins. or the fact that my class is finished and work is slow.
it’s all of those combined i’m sure. i haven’t given myself time for myself. i think about it. i know i need it. but i don’t give myself any time. i need a pedicure, massage, bubble bath. something to relax and bring restoration.
but honestly, those things might help momentarily at best. i’m finding that i rely my own strength too much. WAY too much. and no amount of quiet time, massage or bath time is really going to bring me back. i need to rely on God. i can’t tell you the last time i read my bible. i mean really read it. i get a daily verse on my phone every morning, but i just read it. i just see the words. i need restoration in Him in addition to all those nice girly things.
hopefully i don’t keep putting it off.
